fiNalLy <3

* bergema suara takbir di angkasa..selembut bayu meresap ke dalam jiwa..lalala~
-amansyah's- :)

heee...
dats frst syawal :)
i noe its kinda late for me to updte all the things bout my raya on the *bape raye da ni?? xhengat..hahaha :))
tpi..
nk wt cmne.. dis is da time yg sye free..
chewah2.. bajet2 bz sgt la aku ni..lalala ~
tape2..
so.. basically.. dis year's raya xbes las yr..
dun noe y..
byk bnde jdik sgt..
or mybe dis yr.. xde mood of balik kg for raye
ye la.. since pndah blik kg ni..
i'm da tuan rumah *rumah ibu* for raya..
so...
kinda boring n quite tension..hahaha
cuz sume2 pon kne wt.. dlu blik2 je sume pon da half way done..
but diz time..hhahahaha
padan muke awak mira..:p

da2.. enaf wit that..
tibe2 nk cite bout my 2nd day of raya..hahahaha
yesh!!!!
saye jmpe die.. heee ;)
its 2am..
i met him in frnt of my house..hahaha
babah.. sory..heee :)
he just stop by..
he's on his way to kuale..
he got a lot there so..
hmm..
nyway..
after all the gedix2 n mggtal time..hahahahaha
sye brjye mmbuat die trgdix utk dtg.. hahahaha
so..
basically i met him..
finally!!
after 4 mnth of gayuting n smsing and merapuing
thru the phone..
hahahaha :))
n dat is after 4 mnth we laz met..
heeee
;p

tpi we met for about 5 min cmtu je kot..
da lewat oke peeps!!! sat g kantoi bodo nan babah..
naya ja!! hahaha
tpi..
xabes kt situ je..
hahahaha
esok tu my fam n i went to his lot..
kt kuale..;)
so..
mak n babah plus the arep n afiq da jmpe laa..
as for afiq, tenks tman kakakmu ni p mggtal..hahaha :))
haaa..
time ni lme cket laa..

hmm..

so..

after dat day,.
sume pon oke..
alhamdulillah cuz mak n babah xbyk tnye
n..
xnmpak plax gaye2 disapprove or sumtin..
sume pon oke2 je.. :)
amin!!!

heee...

luv u ahmad rizuan.. <3>
:)
lalalala~

un.certain.ty

You know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

Oh, I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I wanna be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you, oh yeah
I live my life for you

*i live my life for you.. bla..bla.. bla..
kadang2 dlm hdup ni..
xsume yg kite nk salu je dtg bergolek2 kt dpan mate kite
sumtimes we hve to rlly work hard n give all out
just to get it..
tpi..
xsmstinye after sume yg kite wt tu, da outcome is postve..
snang cite..
sume yg jdik pon, we hve to bear wit all the consequences.. :)

kite nk laen,sumtimes Tuhan kasik laen..
kite mtak laen, laen yg kite dpat..
kdang mang xsme lgsung dgn pe yg kite hrap..
wut a life.. hmmm

penat laa..
mcam dpat, mcam xdpat..
mcm ade, mcam xde..
mcam yakin, mcam xsure..
mcam dkat, mcam jauh..
mcam2..
mcam2..
mcam2..
emhh...
xlalu daa..
org pon da xlrat da nk dgr cite awk che mira..
jdi..
sile berhenti!!!!!!!!!
xyah nk cite2 da
dok diam2
kot mane pon, cite ni xkn penah abes..
die dgn dunie die,kau dgn dunie kau..
die dgn hidup die, kau dengan hidup kau..
mne tmpat kau tah..
kau pon xsure..

yin syg,
kite try je our best k nk pjuk die tu
xpe.. anythg hppnd sume de ngan u..
i-mina-kayong-ieqa-baby
sume2 pon de nan u syg..
chaiyo! chaiyo! :)

baby busok,
heee
bhai.. bhai.. bhai..
bhai. bhai.. bhai..
llalala~
take note, mira nynyi lagu mc k.. hahaha
tetttt
rndu die ea??
lalalala ;)

gud luck ieqa syg!!
debate3!! lalala
:)
gud luck...
:)

mina.. jgn sdey2..
die balek kg syg, bkan p kua nan gurl laen..
dun wori.. :)

b..
hahaha
laki u melwak ja tu..
xde mknennye
u oke la syg..
hee
:)

p/s: kalw padi kate padi,

xaku tertampi-tampi,

kalw bnci kate bnci,

xaku ternanti-nanti :)

fOr.heR.fOr.hIm <3

"when you're gone,pieces of my heart are missing you.."
lalalala~

yea.. bile kamu dah tiade,
serpihan hatiku merinduimu..
githu!! chehhh..agagaga :D

actually dis one i dedicated for my lovely hunny bunny shayunk :)
(bile da bace kamu tau kamu sape :p)

gOsh!!
kalw kamu rase kamu syg sgt3 da kt psgan kamu skrg..
jgn yakin sgt tntang u guys pnye so-called syg sgt3
wait..
until u meet this one gurl..
i cal her ms.Honey :)

since die knun2 shuke hijau, i shall use green
eventhough green tu de mksud laen ni..
(sile letakkan jari di tepi bbir anda..agagagagaga :p)

ms. honey..
ms.honey..
ms.honey...
she's a very nice gurl..
she's a very soft-spoken type of gurl..
very da kesian one..
gojes.. LoL
lemah lembut, pkai tdung..ahahaha

dulu..
die de bf..
handsome..
cute..
puteh..
smart..
not to say, he's a sumbody here at our beloved college..
(college 14-sile bgun dan nynyi lgu kolej..)
so.. kinda bz..
pyah nk text ms.Honey n everything..
lack of attention la ms honey ni.. cuz knowing her..
she's kinda gurl yg kne de sumbody keep tagging her..
tpi bukanla smpai 24 jam..
rimas oke people!!! my gOd!!! arrggghhhh!!!
tadi.. ms honey telah melepaskan rasa hatinye scare trbuka pde sya dan seorang lgi kwan sye..
fuhhh!!~

DIE SYG AWAK LAGI LAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

sumpah oke?!
ttaw la.. luv can make us be soo damn blind n at one point..
we can learn to accept any of his flaws..
without us realising it, we actually fall for sumone's flaws..
:(
chenta die nan ex die tu..
mang byk sgt dugaan..
dari org yg kite xsgke2..
mang byk sgt rintangan..
mulut2 org yg brckap psal bnde2 yg tah la...
nk pcye cam karOt, xpcye..
tahla..

as for him..
kalw la kamu trbace neyh..
ms honey ni sgt3 la.. syg kt kamu..
die ni smpai thap meroyan da oke..
sumpah!!!

she's soooo in love wit his ex..
fyi, dorg break atas sbb yg... tahla..
at first, mang la munasabah..
tpi skrg ni..
cm...

xptot pon sbnarnye..
ish tataw..

as for her,
b...
u wt je la pe u nk wt yng..
pedulikan ckap org..
kite mang xkan bole nk ttup mlut org..
smpai bile2 pon..
ape2 pon yg u wt, kitorg ttap de blakg u..
ktorg support u syg..
will owez do!!
sumpah!!!

cuz i noe..
i noe exactly how it feels..
:'(

p/s: ilysm syg.. <3

amOr <3

"i juz cal 2 say.. i love you" lalalala~
tu ringtone che mina.. my syg..
evrytime lgu tu kuar je sure2 tingat che rafie yg cal cuz dlu tu rgtone che mina utk laki die yg sorg tu.. :)

che nurin tu bkan xde bunyik tpi tu la..
"zrett..zrett..zrett" ahahaha
vibrate je manjang..
jari die da mcam pegang tasbeh da..haha :)
b.. i still luv u..

iqa pon same..
*suprised!! suprised!! iqa lepak2 nan ktorg weekend ni.. heee :)
skrg ni c itek tu tgah de prob cket nan jantung hati die..
ksian die.. xpe syg..
go to hell la c lalOla wuteva tu b!!! hahaha
*i got him first* (ayat iqa.. mantappp!!!)

baby..
hmm.. cian budak kecik tu..
saket mate plax, merah gile oke mate die rini.. haish~
tpi die da blik da.. p klinik..
tdi ptg mama n her bro dtg amek kt kolej..
baby plax de prob nan ex cyg die..
die lagi la kesian..
mamat tu bole2 plax wt mcm2 kat budak keciq tu..
dlam mse yg sme tgh dok kunun2 hangat berchenta nan baby.. shitted!!!
wtf! wtb! wth!
hmmm..
xpe b..
u'll find sumone way better than that cheapskate..
*peter pan*
xbisakah kau menungguku..lalalala~

che shafidza..
haish...
bile maw pulang..??? heee :p
ni lagi stu ni..
die dok risau mr.superman die tamaw p jmpa her fmly..
risau plax.. rni
die xcal lgsung updte pape..
aku pon xhengat nk text die..
tdi da kuar tu yg lupe tu.. :(
sory syg..

tdi..
tekua cket cite kt bdak2 ni..
hmm
xde pe la..
bia je rsenye..
nti oke..

now.. ahahahahaha..
bangang!!!

a kelantanese boy..
urghh!!!
gosh!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha
lawak gile oke!!!
i owez say NO to kelantanese boy..!!!!
tah knape..
manmg xbole trime..
tpi..
hahahahahaahahah
there's dis boy..
a junior..
hahaha
idk laa
fee kate,
" b.. flirt2 b.. xslah..hahaha"
try2 je pon..
agagagaga =p
xpe2..
pasni.. kite tgk sape yg kene..

we'll see

now all the syg2 and dear2 da mule kuar..
:)

so..

ahahahaha..

t.b.c.... weeeeeeeeeeee :)

rainbow n rain

"Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.
--Henri Frederic Amiel"

hmm..
i dunnoe y.. im attracted to tat quotes :)
but..
dats the truth..
basically.. (of course)
its bout all the beautiful people around me..( u noe who :p)
btol la..
sumtimes we juz dunnoe.. wut else shud we do to be the best..
becuz all we know is we alrdy done our bez..
until we gve up da rest..
hmm..
they r juz...
i dunnoe..
susah utk difahami??
have high expectation??
want us 2 b prfect??
knape all the people around me bole simply fall in love wit their flaws tpi dorg??
nk yg slalu cntek, indah.. sume2 la..
nk pelangi je..
mang la fitrah manusie nk tgk yg elok, yg chantek, yg smpurna..
tpi..
Tuhan cipta manusie tu xde yg smpurne pon..
if die ensem, mybe die krang kt mne2..
bak kate my fwen ni..
tuhan trunkan hujan cuz nk kurniakan pelangi.. :)

tahla..
pyah kan nk senangkan ati sume org..
jenuh!!
hmm...
lots of thing..
jdik..
tinggal..
sorg..
bedue..
sorg..
bedue..
sorg..
sorg..
sorg..
sorg..
sorg...
again...

sorg...

hmmm...

bOFf.........

b.. rini kite kne stop kt fbmk taw..
clas kite kt dkap,so if kite nk p dkap tu kite kne wt one whole round b..
nti lmbat plax p clas..
*oke2.. jom kite benti fac.. (yin)
-turun la kami berenam dari bus itu..
ketak..ketuk..ketak.. (bunyik kasut)
jom2.. cepat kite lintas jlan.. cepat2..!! (pegang tgn bby,mina nan yin; fee pgang iqa)
-borak2..merapu2 nan bby smbil dgr makiannye pde crita iqa.. tibe-tibe.............

*terlihatlah aku pada seorang jejake yang membawa motor HONDA WAVE kaler merah dgn no plat WQV7471..
die pkai bju kaler biru, bby blue..
die xpkai spek.. die pkai helmet..
die pkai kasut..
die pkai jeans..
die bwak slow2 je.. cuz bru pas belok..
mcam knal.. yes..
i noe him..
i noe him...
i noe him..
*b!!! n*s!!!! (yin menjerit)
yes.. its him..
mang die, aku knal die tu..
gosh!!! rindu!! tergamam !!
sumpah!!!!! =(

de hikmah mgkin nape trjumpe die.. not rlly jumpe, trnmpak je pon.. =p
xpe2.. at least God answered all my prayers..
all this while i owez wanted to c him n now..
ting..ting..
da dpat da.. =)

btw..
laznite lepak2 nan all the gojes kt cfe dgn bobby, ayob n fami..
haish.. mcm2..
dlm gelak2 besar tu (xcaye, p curik phone fee n dgr oke.. =p)
tbe2 kmi dkjutkan dgr berite shit!! from ayob bout one of our so-clled ex adek ipar.. duh?!
mang dsar boya btol die tu gknye..
hmm.. sian bby.. xpe b.. sbar k..
iqa plax dgn mslah die nan chenta hati die..
mcam2 sgt..
yin dgn dilema.. dilema! dilema!!
i noe b..

da2..
hahahahaha.. tbe tingat plax bdak2 ni wt lwak2 bodo smlm..
ketiak la.. pe la..
mcam2.. c tue 2, da k.yong kalw dpat gelak die yg pling maha skali ni..
agagagagaga..
tmbah nan gelak mina.. fuhh!!
bergegar cafe serumpun tu haa..
dgn tnmpak mmat sorg ni bajet2 ensem pkai mask la knun.. h1n1..=p
pastu kne gelak nan bobby,fee sume..'
ko igt ko hensem? aku lgi ensem.. (ayat bobby)
tbe2..
ello polis.. ahahahahahahahahaha
gile
=p

adeh..
gtg.. siap2..
ke clas french..

nti if hve time, will updte k..
sooner..

au revoir...
chewah2..
ahahahaha
=)

t.b.c ******

~roda2 + gojes~

hidup ni kan memang mcm roda? tol x? kan?
sumtimes mang kite kt ats je..
tpi..
at times kite kne gak trun bwah..
utk rase n taw how it feels to be at the bottom..
hmm..

in few years time ni..
byk sgt bnde da jdik..
basically its about me, myself n i..
(xkan nk ckap sal org len plax kan..heeee :p)
so..
tbe2 cm trase da lme sgt plax da roda aku dok kt bwah..

haish..
bosan2.. hmmm...

btol pe mina ckap, nurin ckap..
i shud be worried bout my future life..
if its true i really want to be wit him.
i hve to change him.. i hve to do it..
to convince my mak n babah.. my brothers..
the gojes..!!!
hmm..
tah ape tah yg aku pk.. bengong!!

tpi..

btol gax pe yg bby ckap..
he is sumone dat i cant even stop thinking bout..
bla..bla..bla..
(xhengat da ayat c kenit tu..haha~ curl up pe tah.. ngee :p)

ish.. tahla..
tataw!! tataw!! tataw!!!
i love him.. but im not loving him..
i have him.. but i dont have him..
ish.. penin2..
tataw..

trase sgt bodo diri ini bile menerime sumone yg sume org pon rse trok sgt3..
tahla..
mybe its really my fault..
smpai nurin pon ckap..
"u deserved sumone better than him"
really b??
mne ye??
hpfully he's not sumbody from hre.. (AMIN)
bkan pe..
da xnk da mnusie2 kt bumi upm ni..
rse cm da xbole trime plax..
apsal tah..
bia la jauh...
bak kate baby,

"dkat2 bau busuk... jauh2 sume pon wangi je.."

btol3..
biala jauh.. jauh sgt3 pon xpe..


tahla..
pyah sgt laa.. fed up da rsenye nan sume2 bnde yg jdik..

tpi..
dgn adenye sume makhluk2 Tuhan yg gojes itu..
kuatlah sye utk mghdapi ape shje dugaan dan cbaran.. (chewah2)

tenks to the gojes..

FEE - MINA - YIN - IEQA - BABY

luv u guys soo much..

tenks for owez being there for me..

:)

* t.b.c..wahahaha*

~ my firSt baBy.. n eveRything..lalala~

hee.. :p
hahahaha.. kinda hard when u hve to write sumtin without knowing wut u shud actually write..got me??hahaha.. oke2, firstly.. tenks to the cutest one <baby> for her help in 'making' my first baby..hahahaha. tanpamu.. tidak akan aku tahu bgaimana bermulenye menatang ni..hahaha :p tingtong da haa.. heee :p <che nurin> tenks ni tman i mlm2 mngarot2 pk how am i goin to start to throw everything hre.. <fee & mina + iqa> dun wori u guys still be the people who inspired me to do all dis.. again, without all the gojes people around me i will be nothin' and really nothin'.. (beria ni yakinkan) hahaha :)

oke2.. let us begin.. hmm.. how am i goin to start..huhu :(
my first battle was in uitm.. kinda hard when u first have to be on ur own and u hve to survive alone.. eventhough i hve few of my fwens there but still they're taking different courses from me.. this is the time i met my first 'sayang'< mina>.. at first i tot she's quite sombong n berlgak.. cuz she doesnt even smile at me the first time i met her.. how lorat!!! hahaha. (sorry syg..hee :p) then, evrything when oke, and fine until we got the same room and we're in the same class.. kt class ni la plax i met that gojes yg ajar ni.. <baby> .. first time tgk die, to be honest die mang lawa.. even at that time she's not really pndai at wearing tdung but still.. CUTE!!! hahaha :p hmm.. yg gojes laen2 tu (yin,fee,iqa not to forget che aimi..hee) dorang different grup from us.. they're all in grup A.. (kami ni grup B je..huhu :( ) xpe2.. sme je ni.. ngee .. still pre tesl.. (dat suddenly turned out to be asasi tesl..argghh!! wuteva!! ) hmm.. here,at uitm.. was the place whre i met bujang senang.. emm..

bujang senang..

bujang senang..

he's an athlete.. he's kinda cute.. he's crazy.. he's funny.. he's sempoi.. bla..bla..bla..
pendek kate.. at that time, sume2 pon die laa.. die la itu, die la ini.. he's everything.. lOl~ (at that time laa.. :p) knal die from one of my clasmate, die laa dalang cite ni.. at first everything was oke.. we went out few times.. mkan2,lepak2,jlan2.. minum2.. until there's one day, i decided to celebrate his bday at my house (sect. 9).. sume jdik time tu.. hmm..mlas da nk igt.. but wut can i say is that, he will owez be one of the nicest chapter of my life.. :) enough said--- hahaha.

then,after finished my asasi.. ditakdirkan, aku nan mina dpat skali.. i mean ktorg dpat further degree skali kt upm.. jdoh!!!hahaha~ nk dijadikan cerita plak.. baby pon skali, so ktorg ni salulah bertige.. until we met this one whole grup from grup A asasi dlu.. fee, yin, iqa nan aimi.. we started to become closer n together after da kawad event.. senam seni and everything.. jdiklah da perfex se7en.. :p hmm.. senam seni..

senam seni..

mlam tunas budaya..

MTB...

dancing = dancer...
singing = singer...
hahahahaha :p

ikan.. hmm~ he's sumone who is very dear to me.. he's sumone that is sooo different.. he's sumone that i can't help myself to fall for.. he's sumone that really make me can't stop smiling.. see.. i can't even stop saying everything bout him.. gosh!!!huhu.. before i really know him, i dun even realized that he's around.. i dun even realized that he's actually our PU for the orientation week.. i dun even noe his nicknme.. he is our senior.. act, he has been teaching us our dancing steps for our mtb..

so, basically he's a dancer.. a real dancer.. he can really stunned me when he's dancing.. (sumpah!!) plus.. he's act a good singer too.. relaku menunggumu..lalala~ heee.. let's call him mr. x.. mr. x ni baek sgt3.. i dun noe how to put it in words but siyesli.. he's a very nice guy.. (if not how can i fall for him, head over heels oke!! hahaha) to be honest.. he's not as handsome as all the cute guys outhere.. but, to me.. he got that smile yg sgttttttt comeyyyy!!!!!!!!!!~ i like his teeth!! chanteque!!!! hee.. he got that two tiny teeth yg org pgil siung kt kri knan mlut die..hehe. comey!!! sumpah oke!! hahahaha. he's tall.. he's quite metrosexual.. :p so.. he noes wut to wear n wut not to wear,, i really had a crush on him!! (dok tuleh2 ni pon, senyum taww.. tah.. xbley blah btol r mamat ni..lalala~)

we've been contacting for about one year.. ( i guess) after that,die pon diam.. me too, lagi laa.. anyway.. ktorg start contacting each other after that one nite.. act terserempk je pon, n at that time tkar2 phone no n evryhting.. i had nver tot dat he's goin to msg me after dat! sumpah! pastu.. ktorg ym-ing..hahaha. on the phone.. n the sweetest part is time blan pose.. xmiss kjut aku utk sahur.. hmm... wut's dat?? idk!! huhuhu. until one day..

17th september 2008..
class pengucapan awam.. dkap..bla..bla..bla..

yin, bday mr.x xlme ag ni.. can i make a bday suprise for him?? (punyela baek tnye ni..)
wut b?? mr. x?? u nk suprise?? btol ke??(terkejut klah nmpak antu)
u ase??(slow lgi)
b.. u nk wt ape clbrate bday die?! pe yg die wt utk u?! bday u ?! dee die bgi pape??!! x kan?! soo?! (yin tgking ni.. for the first time ever die tgking aku taw... sentapppp!! sumpah!! meleleh air mate taw!! ahahaha)

after dat ktorg xbckap.. (smpai kolej je pon..hahahaha) sampailah all the gojes decide nk confront aku n tell me all the things yg dorg dgr.. dri mlut mcam2 manusie.. (act. smpai skrg aku tataw nk caye ke x.. hamba Allah yg ckap tu pon cm.. tahla.. no offense k? cm xbtol je..huhuhu) after da dgr cite yg ie pnah ckap bad things about me behind my back, aku pon decide nk confront die n mtak brag aku blik mlm tu jgak.. (my lappy, cinderella-die tlong repair) tpi, die xtrun pon.. die soh mmbe die trun n gave me my cndrella.. suprised!! suprised!!! mmbe die dtg bwak mashimaro besar wit a red love kt tgah n bgi kt aku..

nah.. mr.x bagi.. die kte sori lmbat.. die wish hepi bday..

wutt???!!! sume2 pon tkjut gler k.. sumpah sume org tkjut thap dewa pnye r.. sume da strt de doubt bout wut yg dorg ckap tdi.. tah la.. hmm.. things happnd.. huhu.

until today.. aku still smpan his mashimaro wit me.. n.. smpai skrg gak ak tataw npe die kasik aku dat thing.. sbb as far as i noe, aku xpnah gtaw die yg i really had a crush on him.. n.. kalw pon ak xckap clearly.. aku rse die taw bnde tu tpi die pon xpnah nk ckap yg he got sumtin2 towards me.. hnye pe yg die pnah wt utk aku, itu xkan bole meyakinkan aku as well as the gojes yg he also got sumtin towards me too.. so ak xprnah hrap anyhting from him.. i dun want to b hurt for the second time.. noo... (sakettt wooo~~)

because...

he already has a gf.. :)


so... dat's it.... smpai hari ni..

but..

nurin once asked me...

kalw dberi pluang utk smbung blik dgn die.. start sume2 blik.. kwan cm dlu.. nk x??

my answer is...

of course i want to.. cuz until now.. i still can't forget all the things bout him.. his smile.. the way he talked to me.. everything!! i dun noe y.. ( if only i can make it a reality...hmmm)

oke2.. enaf is enaf..
heee...

baby salu ckap..

if we luv sumbody.. set them free..

baby pon salu ckap..

u hve to kiss many frogs before u find the real prince..


hmm...